Monday, November 12, 2012

So Easily Solved

I haven't been shy about sharing my mental health struggles this year for two reasons:

1.  This blog is my scrapbook and journal and it helps me process my feelings when I write them.  I also like it being a social outlet where others can read and comment, which further helps me make sense of it.

2.  I wish more people were more open about this stuff.  I hate struggling alone to call the right person, to know who/what kind of Dr. to approach about it, etc.  Especially when you are feeling very sensitive, its a difficult thing to face.  I figure my being open might give others license to do the same.

I don't regret sharing this stuff with the world at all, even though it makes me vulnerable.  That said, I'd like to share with you how I found my cure.  

It isn't what I expected.  I've started taking higher doses of Vitamin D after some bloodwork revealed that I am low in it.  That simple.  I've gone off of my {three!} different psych medicines and am feeling more healthy and myself than ever.  Simply a vitamin deficiency it appears to have been.

I want to emphasize that I am not sharing this as a prescription for others with mental illness.  I am too well aware of its dangers to ever give advice.  I just wanted to share one person's story, so that in the "getting of help" I could urge people to make sure all medical issues are checked.

In the beginning of my breakdown (for lack of a better word) no medical checks were even discussed or encouraged.  Just one heavy hitting medication after another were tried, along with their myriad of side effects.  If they didn't work the dosage was increased....along with....more side effects.  So much of the previous months were spent in a fog just trying to put one foot in front of the other.  I'm not resentful of the medical path taken, but feel more educated about the possibilities behind certain situations I might find myself in.

Vitamin D deficiency seems to be getting more press these days, as I feel it should.  I think a number of factors contributed to mine.  First of all the lack of sun in the area I am in, and the way we live in our culture.  But secondly, nursing for two years (this time) drained my body in ways I didn't expect.  As much as I believe in breastfeeding and encourage it for all moms, sometimes the way our bodies give more than they have to ensure the survival of the species :) can deplete us a lot.

Be careful, ladies.  And, as always, thanks for reading!


  1. I myself had what I call my breakdown 4 years ago. I did go to a dr...and after being put on an antidepressant... it didnt help nothing did. One night I hit my breaking point I called a local psychiatrists night emergency number. She made me an appt to come in at 7am. My husband held me through the night and took me to that 7am appt. Its the best decision I ever made. She gave me meds yes... quite a few actually..but more importantly she listened and we talked. Now 4 years later I am not on anything..not that I wont have to go back on it at some point because I know better than anyone how mental health can be unsettled at anytime. I applaud you for talking about it... because so many dont..its a dirty secret swept under a rug or hidden behind closed doors...and why should it be? So many people can benefit from knowing it happens...and dont be ashamed if it happens...get help.. find what works for you... Thanks for your post!

  2. It's amazing how nature has a cure for just about everything! Thank you for sharing!

  3. I was on various medications, what the dr's like to call "cocktails" for more than 10 years. At times I took 27+ tablets/capsules per day {Prozac also made a show}. Only at the end of 2010 were I diagnosed with Bipolar 2 Disease as well as Agoraphobia and Schizophrenic-Affective. The passing away of my Mom in 2000 apparently triggered all this in me - which supposedly I inherited. I had to leave my job, my studies in Criminal Profiling, everything! Whilst I was on all the meds I felt "dead", no feelings at all, so after I was diagnosed, I made a decision to go meds-free, it is extremely difficult at times, and I am a horrible person when in one of my moods. I know it is hard on my family, but I need to feel alive, and I am taking the absolute most necessary {2 types} meds to function inside my own home at least. I am glad to hear that you are much better, after taking Vit D, and wish you good luck, and hope your health will keep improving. Thank you for sharing with us!

  4. Thanks for sharing your journey. It takes a lot of guts to do so and maybe one I will share my story as well. Very inspiring. Good luck :)

  5. Thank you for sharing! I agree, I wish people weren't so afraid to share what they feel and what is going on in their lives. It is so much less "scary" when you talk about it. But I don't know, maybe I am just WAY too open. :) Glad the vitamin helps, that is really good to know. With me it is iron. My husband calls them my happy pills when I take iron supplements. I have WAY more energy. It is crazy. Thanks again!

  6. Pass the vitamin D please. Or maybe I'll just try to get a tan (just kidding - it's November for goodness sake).

  7. I suffered with horrible depression and anxiety for years before I discovered 5htp and Vitamin D did the trick for me. Everyone has a different body chemistry and we all have to tweak our systems. :)
    Kudos to you for sharing your story, you never know how far those things will reach and who they may help.

  8. Wow!! What wonderful news!!! I am so excited for you!!!

  9. I'm so glad you figured it out. Isn't it amazing what a little sun can do?

    The last place we lived was in a bowl and tons of trees so Vitamin D deficiency was rampant,as were some of it 's side effects, like SADD. You've inspired to get outside a little bit more. I guess it isn't just good for the kiddos!

  10. Glad to hear you were able to cut down the meds & are feeling great. Thanks for linking up with me, Bobi. Please be sure to link posts a little more geared toward parenting next time, if you can. Have a happy Thanksgiving!


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