Daring Greatly

I just got done watching some of this woman's TED talks and thinking about courage and vulnerability.  I, as do probably a lot of others, feel like the poster child of hiding from things due to fear of being vulnerable.  I've been job hunting for about a year now, and learning a lot about myself in the process of rejection.  I haven't seen really any financial success to speak of but I've felt the thrill of being rewarded for my own creation and creativity via this blog.  It's something I wanted to really say I tried this year and that is why I have posted almost every day since Jan 1.  I figure good, bad, ugly or boring I'm gonna post what I have to post, because if I don't I won't have ever really tried this thing.

My top sources of vulnerabily as a blogger are this:

1.  Picture quality, blog layout, blog provider, cool sounding URL, amount of times a project is pinned, number or lack of comments.

2.  Saying my truth rather than saying something catchy that I think people want to read

After watching the thought provoking talks by Brene I think if I'm really going to DO THIS the way I want to I'm going to have to let those fears go and keep doing it my way.  Trying to make something I think people want wears me out, but tapping into my own creativity is re-generating.  I feel so much pressure to have the time I spend show some kind of financial gain for our family and that's probably the biggest thing that keeps me from pursuing what I find invigorating mentally.  But a year later, with nothing to show from pursuing the *normal* way of making a living, why the heck not?!  Working for free better be fun work!